A Preamble to Healing

wow.

well, I said 6 months ago that I was back at updating my blog.  It's now July aaaand....nothing.

I have good reason.

I just wasn't ready.

I'm finally allowing myself to rehash what I call my own personal tragedies, probably because my heart just can't hold onto them anymore.  I'm hoping by getting it all out (along with lots and lots of prayer), that I can breathe again.

I have no idea where to begin on the last 2 1/2 years of our lives.  What I do know, is that it's been a crazy roller coaster with ups and downs (more downs than I'd like) but hey...I'm still here and I still have my amazing husband, my amazing son, and the best family and friends I could ask for. 

While my next series of blogs will be more about my heartaches, I am still reminded of all the blessings God has given me through this same time period.  A constant stream of hope and encouragement in the form of love and laughter...like beautiful shooting stars piercing my heart...reminding me that I am loved and all that I have to be thankful for.  I know I am not the first person to experience what I have, and I know it could be so much worse.  So I write this as my own journey, with a thankful heart for the things I have not had to endure.

It's going to take me a while to get everything out onto "paper", and I'm honestly doing it more for me and my own healing than anything else, but if it can help anyone, in any way, by sharing my journey...that would be a plus. 

**deep breaths**